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I have been invited a few times this week to go to sing in Seattle. Thanks to a tremendous amount of help from my friends, thanks guys, I was able to venture up there. The first night I played at the Skylark. It was a red walled dive bar full of people at little square tables and wooden benches with a cute little stage in front. By the time I was able to go up it was getting late and there were only stragglers left inside, but the ones that stayed really enjoyed what i did. :)
The next night it was at the Dubliner in Fremont. Really cute Irish bar with a seemingly secret roomed alcove. Bar in back up a few steps and the servers were really friendly. Nice stage although the announcer guy was not incredibly friendly. The best part of the whole night.. my friend ashley from Alaska showed up and so did another friend, Ash from Seattle. I was so happy to see them walk in as I'm on stage pretending that the world is listening to my words. ha. Thank you Ashleys!!
Well all in all I am getting better at the beats, strums, coordination, everything. I am not great by any means, but I do enjoy it. I hope that people enjoy listening so I can continue on with it.
I am posting the only photo i have of my show at Paddys last friday.. totally unflattering but hey.. we cant look like rock stars all the time.

This Night. Of all nights.

Tonight the kids are fast asleep. Noah is passed out on the couch and parker is in his room surviving a slight fall down the stairs. It is almost 3 am and here i sit. Just nourishing my body with a nutrigrain bar (mixed berry) and a few chips and salsa.. I am close to hitting the hay.
Tonight I found myself disappointed in so many things and people. Mind you I had a pretty good day with the boys. We played a lot of rock, paper, scissors and Parker had a big football practice. But I realized how hard it is to be a single mom. It is overwhelming and difficult and stressful... I find myself so alone sometimes. Raising kids alone is the biggest task i have ever taken (obviously).
Tonight my good friend colin came over to hang out with the boys. They watched movies and played imaginary games like glasses, gum, potato... and i got to go out for the first time in quite a while. (thank you colin) I went to a few different places and wound back at my house at around midnight... utterly disappointed in people once again for the day. Sometimes i wish life was more set out.. easier.
Tomorrow is a new day. It is a bright day. I see the plan ahead and no matter how stressful it may seem to me.. tomorrow will come and i will have to deal with it while carrying a little boys hand in each of mine.
Im gonna go to the toy store in the morning and buy the police puppet parker has been dying for.
Then Im gonna breathe and keep on going.

randomness

Well here it is.. first week of october.. so much going on. Parker is now in football. Its so much fun going to practice and watching him love his life... even if it is pouring rain and 2 hours of practice. hah. Parker is also signed up for a math class and a photography class which im really excited about.
I am working days now at the restaurant so i can be home at night with the boys and its working alright. I got my name on the menu at work which is pretty neato. I created a Guinness float. Its paddys ice cream topped with guinness and its in our menu now as Heidis Guinness Float! yay me.
I must say working at paddys i have met a lot of really great people. A group of people that i have been serving every sunday night at paddys came in tonight per usual.. and gave me a great tip.. It was a card that all of them had signed and a $50 gas card. They are amazing friends that i have made and i appriciate them to the fullest. Recently there has been a bit of drama in my life and they have been so concerned and caring.. they are genuinely great people. Thanks Ochs family.
I've been doing a bit of photography. Finished my first album for a 50th wedding anniversary and that was amazing.. so much fun!! i will put up a link on here soon as i figure out how.. haha
well im off to bed. I got 14 hours of sleep last night and i think im reading to mosey on to dreamland again.